mood: bored music: me typing on the computer

Hey everybody!!! wow its been almost a year since I have updated this bitch....now I can say that there's a month till my 17th birthday!! whooop whoop... partyyyy!! lol...so whats been up... whats been going on at LC? ne thing new???... yea my new school sucks big donkey ass....i hate it there....ne one wanna be in the ghetto go to Clintondale....they give you jail food...n the people there think there black....so that practically means im the only white bitch there lol....im moving again.....hopfully back there....cant wait....so....hows life?? havent seen or talked to ne of you in like forever....i seen cassie the other day ...it was AWSOME i missed her so much .....but hey i really dont have ne thing else to say except if ne of you still read this comment!!!!

                                   Love,

                                          The one and only....Ashes

mood: angry music: lil flip-sunshine

Hey everyone whats up not to much here, WOW its been a really long time since i have updated this shit.....Well right now im sitting at my dads since i dont have a computer at my moms and im listening to bonnie tyler....MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 9 DAYS!!! wow im going to be sweet sixteen :-) lol n everyone is making it a living hell...i dont kno if lyssa can come because justin dont know we are friends n i dont want them to fight....and Nikki made planes to go up to Holley w/ Ranee what a great best frined huh.....then she tells me that she dont want ryan around Alyssa i was like wtf its my birthday cant you just get over your bullshit and have fun w/ me because i do it all year round for all of you people and non of you can seem to get along for me....n im suposidly your guyses best friends........WOW major bullshit.....well other then that Me n Richie have been great....on my birthday it will be 1 year 8 months so i got more to celebrate then just a birthday :-)....omg my dad is such a dork he is watching Dr. Suses on tv... he is a fruit cake.....lol omg i am really board.....i need a circle hahah KoPiKaT....damn i miss her....its not right not being able to talk to her or hang out w/ her or spend the nite there or have her spent the nite at my new house.....I MISS MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!!! grrrr i wish Justin didint hate me.....n the funny thing is we dont even know y he does.........damn that shit is gay..........so im gonna be at home alone all day today becase my friends have better things to do....thats great......i seriously dont know y i put up w/ peoples bullshit..........but then again i have to think they put up w/ mine so it all works out in the end........okay well im getting bored so im just gonna end this entry.........ill talk ot you all later leave me some comments

                          Love Always

                                *AsHeS*

mood: bouncy music: Tech nine- imma tell

Hey everyone....wow its been a super fricken long time since i have updated this shit....well nothing really to exciting has been going on...been w/ my KoPiKaT alot....school starts in like 4 days man this sucks ass......i dont want to go bak.....me n richie are great...n Lyssa n Ricky are getting along well too if i might add......though there not together officially yet were working at that......right now im just sitting at lyssas waiting for her to finish her chores so we can go to my house n get ready so we might be able to go out n do sumthing today....been w/ my Richard alot latly gosh i love him so much......My Dad moved out completly n Chris moved in.....umm my hair is really Dark purple now......it was an oops it was only suppose to be the very tips of my hair n my sister jenny messed it up so Alyssa tried to fix it n it ended up being like almost all of my hair so were just doing it all purple........hmm this should be interesting............me n lyssa have a new favorite movie.......Spice World (dont ask) we got  bored n started watching the spice girls movie n it was funny we knew like all the songs they sang.............ohhh ohh ohh n mine n lyssas new song for everyone..........okay ready here it is........My Bologna has a first name its O-S-C-A-R my Bologna has a second name its M-A-Y-E-R ...Ohhh i love to eat it everyday n if you ask me what ill SAYYYYY ...Oscar Mayer has a way w/ BOLOGNAAAAAAA!!!! :-)  lol dont ask we were pulling an all niter w/ alot of coffee n thats what we were singing the whole time.....ohh that n Haca Haca neese it means nig nig please......its japanese lol its my own version of it.........well this has been a long update so im gonna end it.........comment

                        *ShAdOe*

mood: drained music: M2M-Mirror Mirror

Hey everyone......sorry i havent updated in so long i dont have the internet ne more so yea.....well summer has started n me n Alyssa havent really been away from each other......its been fun.....friday we babysat all nite long but thats okay becuase we had alot of friends over....saturday the same thing only this time the boys came over......n then we hung out w/ Gino for the rest of the day.......sunday we hung out w/ the boys all day :-D we love them.......then monday the boys again.........tuesday boys.....n then tuesday nite we hung out w/ Gino Billy Beast Adam Rj n this one guy w/ a fake snake wraped around his arm......n they were over till like midnite.........then we all just went to bed......Wed..Michael Alan Niemczyk came over for a little while......then me n Alyssa went to the boys houses.....n it was gay cuz there friend shawn was there n i cant stand him.......well neither can alyssa.......well the boys ignored us.......playing basketball......then  we came home around 10 n we made chicken n frenchfries........then went stares watched posion Ivy....then went to bed n now im here issa is on the bed.........n we might go to a parade today......dunno yet.......so yea thats my summer so far.......well im done here leave me alot of comments........

                      Love Always.....

                                                 *AsHeS*

mood: confused music: Tech nine-Psycho Bitch

Hey sorry i havent updated in awhile....alot of shit........this is my weekend........friday me n issa went to ricky n richies house n hung out came home at like 12 n she spent the nite.......stayed up till 2 n then went to bed.......then Saturday woke up at like 11 issa went home to get her shit doen the n came bak later n we hung out w/ Ricky n Richie we thought we had to babysit but that never happend so we got the whole house to ourselfs.....my mom stayed at my aunts house w/ her boyfriend n my dad moved out so yea........Cassie came over at like 9 when me n issa were eating GHETTO PIZZA.....lol we made it all our own........then we dyed the underlength of my hair pink.......:-D thanks cassie.....then we were taking pictures of eachother w/ Cassies camera.......THEN omg Cassie had the brilliant idea that Rich come over.....dont get me wrong i wanted him here.......but things are all wrong......well he snuck out at like 1 and came over he wouldnt come in the house.......that didnt last very long.....they got him into the house.......lol.......then they all sat in the living room n bullshited.......i dont understand him..he hates me rite?.......then y come in my house go on my computer n download music or stand in my room.....if you hate someone you cant stand to be in the same room as that person correct?.......people i need help........im so confused i wish things were different i want him back.........i want him back as my friend.........he has cait n i have richie.......so y cant we be friends.......its gayness.......well at least we got pictures of him.....sitting on the couch, computer, standing in my room......well at least he was here..........know i kno y Alyssa refered to justing breakingher heart by saying it feels like 1000 stabbing knifs rite into your hart.......dude it fucking ached so bad having him sit rite there n not even be able to talk to me......its not worth it is it?.......i have no clue........well he left at like 3.....i hope he dont get into trouble......well we stayed up till 6 eating tatortots n drinking diet coke....n smoking  lol wow didnt we feel old........well then we went to bed n we woke up really early......lol.......im so not tired...i just feel stoned lol.......okay well now i updated lol have fun reading..n if you can leave comments n tell me what i should do w/ this situation that i seemed to have gotten myself into..........

                               *AsH*

Comments please!

mood: bored music: none

Hey well since i havent updated in a few days ill fill ya in on whats been goin on.....Last friday the 9th was Alyssa's birthday and we all went n hung out....we went to mc donalds n shit.......it was funner then hell then me nikki and alyssa all went  bak to there house n the boys ricky richie n justin stayed at my house.......it was no fair they got to drink....n we didnt.......then saturday didnt really do ne thing sunday was easter so we went to my aunt pams house.....shit happend there n she took me to the bar w/ her....then i came home.....monday was mine n richies one year together :-D.......and my dads surgury...so i was at the house alone w/ Richie all day twas fun....we watched panic room....lion king 1 1//2 and umm another movie...plus he gave me purple daisys.........:-D....then umm tusday...hung out w/ Alyssa spent the nite at her house......stayed up all nite watching movies w/ her cousin James........then wed....slept a long time.....went to Art Van w/ Alyssas mom n we were supppose to hang out w/ Justin n Richie but that fell through n we only got to hang out w/ Justin.....o well it was fun ne wat....went to mc donalds lol then walked to my house........umm thursday.....went over richies and hung out there ALL freaking day.......it was really fun....i made ricky push me on the rope swing for an hour.......then ronnie tried to tickle me n i fell off......lol it was fun.......friday.....umm lets see it started off as i was suppose to go to great skate w/ Ryan Nigger n Sammy n we were all suppose to hang out again.......but nikki was going so i decided to stay home n go do sumtihng else cuz i just wanted to hang out w/ it being just me n ryan n it wasnt so yea........me n richie were talking n he had the idea that we go to the Nights of Columbus........and go see a bunch of screamo bands..........we were going to do that till we had to look for rickys non igsistant hookers and then we couldnt find the place so we ended up going to the vandyke fair it was alot of fun.....i got to meet alot of richies friends and we all just hung out n went on rides......i made richie ride the zipper w/ me......WOW he is such a baby ."im fine im not scared....*cart rocks..his hands grab the bars*AHHH".......yea get the picture i was pissing my self..........lol then came home around midnight........Jodie came over drunk so me n chelsee went home w/ her....hung out at her house for a little while........then this shit has been going on w/ Chelsee and a few of her "friends".....well the one little bitch came up to my sister n was like "at least my dad isnt dieing" now my dad is really sick n of course he is "dieing"..........so chelsee was very hurt by this n she didnt get to go to the party 2 doors down cuz today is her ex best friend chalisees birthday n tomorrow is chelsees........so Me Chelsee n Jodie all went n put eggs on her pourch..........then when we passed the girls house that said shit to my sister i threw eggs at he rhoue........:-D REVENGE IS THE BEST............okat so yea thats my spring break.......hopefully i will get to spend the nite at Ryans n Ricky n Richie can pic me up tomorrw on there way to my house for Chelsees birthday party..............love ya all

     *AsH*

mood: dorky music: The tv playing a movie that im not watching lol

Hey everyone....okay so this is my week/weekend.......practice for choir ALL WEEK and LAST weekend......thursday show Richie went w/ my dad YAY they are finally getting along again :-D happiness......then Friday- after school i went to Nikkis house and she pierced my upper ear 2 times.....2nd time i bled like a bitch and justin being the wonderful friend that he is tried to put pressure on my ear to make it stop bleeding by attempting to put the earing in and w/ a flat back earing n no needle missed the hole and pierced the ear again....i screamed bloody murder and i cried to lol..........it hurt so damn bad....but i is okay now....then we went to my house to get ready for the choir concert and  Ryan Nigger(jesse) and Richie came w/ us :-D...then my mom droped me n nikki off at my house n took the boys home, nikki was staying the nite so we went for a walk to smoke a ciggarett and then came bak n nikki made me piss my pants.....lol then we hung out n went to bed.......woke up early...nikki went to modleing......then i was getting ready cuz i was suppose to go to Richies house and hang out before the concert but Stefz since she got her licens came over to pick me up.....YAY i seen her n Stepz.........we went n got keith.....then went to the mall then to c stefz car she is getting on monday.......then to wendys then to kenedy square to c Mikey n all them cuz they were skating...then  bak to her house to c MOM :-D i missed  her SO MUCH........i forgot how much fun we all use to have it was a fun time then she drove me home........so i got ready for the concert n Ricky Richie and Ronnie came n got me to take me to the concert......then went there....after the first part of the show during intermission Me Nikki Melissa Ashely Kelly Cait n Ashley all went outside n found ricky richie n eddie smoking so u kno we all went n did it to lol.......then after the show Ricky n Richie both bought me flowers :-D AWW i almost cried........then my mom let me go w/ them for a little while so we went to go get ciggaretts and then got taco bell YUMMY......then on the way of them taking me home me n richie were making out in the bak of the car n these guys were sticking condoms to the window n were gonna throw us them n we were like no thanks lol....n then they were getting it up from richie kissing me n grabbing my boob lol it was great.......n now im sitting home alone bored and  not tired one bit....so yea i thought i would up date n tell ya all how it went........well im done so leave me some comments on this exciting week...........

                         *AsH*

I LOVE RICHIE

mood: ditzy music: The princess diarys playing on Tv

Lol um im updating this damn thing cuz Mike says i need to lol........so today we had choir practice.....it was SO DAMN long.....lol well yea Nikki spent the nite last nite......n she is spending the nite tonite again......lol we mad cookies n we are about to start drinking........lol YAY.....so yea thats basically my nite.....umm tomorrow got choir again....n Ryan might come over.......YAY's lol.........im bored..........I NEED A CIGGARETT.......bout to go smoke one...........BAD BAD ME........o well........so yea i have a new mission to corupt Mike of his innocents lol he does NOTHING bad lol.....thats about to end :-D........okay well im done here

                 *AsH*

 I LOVERS YOU!!

mood: cheerful music: The tv..

Hey....well since sunday i have had pink eye n i havent been in school....so yea i have been sleepng in.....lol well yesterday i went to Lake Side mall w/ my mom n i got these really cute pants from wet seal......n then i got a pink shirt from Dots lol....i had fun it was just me n my mom all day then we went out to eat.....SO yea today was my first day bak in school...it felt WEIRD.....lol new cloths not me at all but cute and i felt so out of place......idk but it was fun i found out we had a half day so thats a plus....umm first hour (actually 4th) was boring as all hell lol me nikki n katie all had to take tests because we werent there....so we were all cheating n walking around in the hall ways...lol....i still think i failed....then umm 5th hour  was awsome everyone turned in there home work n Me Mike Sarah n Steve chilled all hour.....then 6th hour.....umm walked in n seen Mike lol :-D he is fun to be around...then had to move to go sit my Missi cuz umm Mrs Burch wont let me sit by mike cuz we talked all hour the last time....im sorry mike we need to learn to keep our mouths  shut lol.....then we got out of school but not before i was hitting mike in the face n he hurt my arm :-/ lol he is a meanie.. then Me mike   n Missi walked down the main stairs n were messing around n i accidently broke Mikes binder :-D hehe......lol.....then he gave me a hug lol damn that kid hugs tightly........well after that i met this  Mike guy from 5th hour n Sarah....walked to Mikes car and umm then we went to Taco bell where umm Sarah left w/ sum black guys n Mike took me home..he is really cool....i smoked a ciggarett n now im just sitting here bored waiting for Richie to get off of school so i kno if im gonna c him today or not.......i really hope so i miss him alot.... well im done writing this for now....ill up date again in a few days..because  i dont have AIM rite now considering the fact that we got a new computer and umm no aim for a few weeks until all the safe shit is in the computer...okay well im done here i lvoe you all.......

                             *AsH*

leave me sum comments cuz i cant talk to ne one

mood: dorky music: the kids bitchin

Hey.....so this is whats been going on.....well today is St. Pattys day lol...me n issa made ghetto poor peoples shirts....they were cool as hell lol....she came over last nite n we hung out....n shit like that...so yea today.....umm well it start off really funny cuz i woke up late  n issa was coming over so i had to hurry my ass up in the shower lol n she walked into the house n scared the f uck out of my dad....she was like morning dad.....he was like WTF lol.....then we walked to meet nikki....n shit like that then first our we just colored my shirt n Nikki's socks n took pictures of me n sam lol.......umm second hour watched a movie....3rd hour umm danced (choir is gay) LUNCH lol......im such a fat ass lol.....then science was gay.....5th our hung out w/ Steve Sarah n Gabby lol......n 6th hour i  talked to my new friend Mike....is he A-W-S-O-M-E.....lol.....there mike your in my journal lol......um then Ricky n Richie picked me up from school....YAY lol.....went to there friend Jeffs house......hung out w/ Jeffs little sister she is 14 okay kid lol......umm im really hyper......went bak to Richies.....n umm ate food....watched charmed n STUFF lol use your imagination......then got smokes n came home....now im sitting here....my lil brother n sister are annoying me like no other .....damn kids.......were painting the kitchen FUN lol........okay well im done here...........ill up date again later love ya all

                 *AsHeS*

I Love YOU!!